I can't deal with my mom anymore?

Do you have another family member like aunt, uncle, or grandparent you can talk with about this and maybe move in with? You need to get out of that environment. It is not good for you but you already know that. There are not a lot of options for a young lady of 14 other than talk to a relative about what is going on and see if they will let you move in with them or report this abuse to your school counselor. But if you do that, remember, your mom will be investigated and if your allegations are proven valid you will be removed from your home and put in another home like foster care unless another family member will be willing to step up and take responsibility for you. Other than that, you have no options except to put up with her until you are legal age to leave. What worries me the most is you staying there with her. She definitely has some mental problems and you don't need to be exposed to her actions all of the time. You sound like a very intelligent young lady and I am sure you will do what is best for you. I only wish you had a decent mom to rely on. Good luck to you!